Give Me A Break

If it would all stop.
Stop moving forward.
Pause, stop the world spinning
Just for a little while.
Let me catch up
Catch my breath.

But I know if I paused
I would never start again
The warm deep calm
That would wash over me
I would never let go.

I haven't slept very well,
Dreams are haunting.
I don't know anything but nightmares
I can't handle being alone,
Or being with people.

I want a break.
I need to stop treading water
Please, God, throw me a life raft
I don't know if my legs and arms
Will give out.

I've been struggling for so long
Underwater, breathing through a straw
I've surfaced but I get pulled under
Just without the breathing device
And I don't want to drown

Give me a break,
Make me weightless
Let me float away
Just let me rest

Stop throwing road blocks in the way.
It's just cruel,
I have enough already.