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Cuts along my ribs
Because I hate mirrors.
Blood down my side
Because I'm fat
I can't eat
If I do then,
I'm a failure.
If I do then,
I feel sick.
I've thought my body
Into rejecting food
I want to be skinny
Life is handing me reasons
Dressed nice on a silver platter
No money for food at my house
New meds that take my hunger away
I can stop eating again
Without being noticed
Last time I dropped 35lbs in 2 weeks
I'm going for more this time
I hate myself
Want to hurt all the time
I want to punish myself for breathing
Self confidence is fake
It's been undermined by doubt
I'll over-exercise
Till I can't breathe
Dig a blade in everyday
Punish myself when I eat
I need to be skinny
I want no stomach
I want it flat
I want to be beautiful
Even if it kills me
Because I hate mirrors.
Blood down my side
Because I'm fat
I can't eat
If I do then,
I'm a failure.
If I do then,
I feel sick.
I've thought my body
Into rejecting food
I want to be skinny
Life is handing me reasons
Dressed nice on a silver platter
No money for food at my house
New meds that take my hunger away
I can stop eating again
Without being noticed
Last time I dropped 35lbs in 2 weeks
I'm going for more this time
I hate myself
Want to hurt all the time
I want to punish myself for breathing
Self confidence is fake
It's been undermined by doubt
I'll over-exercise
Till I can't breathe
Dig a blade in everyday
Punish myself when I eat
I need to be skinny
I want no stomach
I want it flat
I want to be beautiful
Even if it kills me
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To the Vein
To the vein that wasn't cut
To everyone who called me a slut
Just let it be known,
I can stand on my own
Though I still have the need
I refuse to bleed
My scars haven't healed
but my wounds have all sealed.
I'm ready to throw out my blade
and to watch my deepest hurt fade.
For three long years,
my blood was my tears...
So To The Vein That Wasn't Cut
I am Enough.
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Beyond Help
You don't understand.
You never will.
You think you can help.
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Mirror
It helps when you cover up with makeup,
because you feel your too ugly not to.
To help when you think something is stuck in your teeth,
because mom's cooking always seems to.
To help when you're taking a picture of yourself,
because no pictures should come out blurry and ugly.
And yet it doesn't help me see who I am.
It doesn't help if I look into that mirror,
To check and see if I'm still awake,
If I'm still alive.
Or am I daydreaming again?
Lying in my own world of nothingness.
Where nothing has to make sense,
Thus there must be nothing.
This thing that I throw down at the ground,
Shattering it to pieces,
Because it
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this sounds a bit like anorexia who act and think the same way. please get professional help to ease along the way and its also a very sensible thing to do that is; behavior therapy to help with thinking patterns, some antdepressant medication as well as an if necessary dose of tranqulizers when needed as a backup medication. its related to a depressive state which is fairly obvious. but cbt behavior therapy is also extremely useful and important.