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I feel like I just wrote my last update but it's been over a year. I don't know how that happened.

I should probably write another update even if it feels like screaming into the abyss. That will come later.

For now, I'm kinda wondering if anyone is still out there. Would anyone want more art? I might start posting again anyway. 
I'm back to writing a bit more now. I think its a lot better than my mentally ill ramblings. 

Not sure anyone will even read this but hello!

So, it's been over a year since I last wrote an update. Unfortunately I can not and will not sum up a year in a journal but lets hit some highlights.

1. I passed the hardest test of my life and became a licensed life saver. I then got a job as an EMT and have been working in the Boston area for quite a while. I had one partner that was perfect in a lot of ways mostly because he taught me to stand taller and gave me the strength to bring hopeless kids to the same hospitals I had once occupied. Now my new partner is a ray of sunshine and a great friend. 

2. My family has been through a lot. My sister was the victim in an armed robbery and was shot. This was a year ago this week and I am just happy to still have her in my life. My dad was also electrocuted at work last September and he amazingly survived that as well. We got lucky and I thank god that it's not just me and mom left. 

3. I am still with my boyfriend. Our relationship is crazy strong and I couldn't imagine being with anyone else. 

4. I am on my way to recovery and finally planning my first tattoo as a trophy. I'm feeling pretty "recovered" despite all the bad days. Because I totally know how to deal with them now. I haven't been on any medications for more than 2 years now probably. And do not have a therapist it's all my bad ass hard work. 

5. I have had 3 suicides very close to me in the last 7 months and this is igniting some long dormant ideas of speaking in schools. I have contacted my therapeutic high school and are working with them to create a alumni talk series based around the idea of "It gets better." I know my public school will be harder to crack but I will work on them. 

6. I have 3 jobs and am a part time student so I am very busy. Next week I go through training for the newest position and will have a 60 hr week plus class so wish me luck. Stress only makes me stronger. Bring it on.

Thank you for the years of support on here.  

Lots has happened in 5ish months. I'll stay away from the bad. I want to tell you guys about something that was magical for me. 

I took my boyfriend to New York. 
Our 4 year anniversary is July 3 but I had to give him his gift early. 
His favorite band played a show in NYC and it was the closest date that had VIP tickets. I got him one and then added the meet and greet package. I managed to keep it all a secret for like 2 months. I packed his fav band tee and when we settled into our hotel room I told him that nights plans. It went perfectly and I got to sneak into the meet and greet because roadies are amazing people. 

It goes without saying that the show was amazing and we found some new music. We even made a show friend but I only ever got his first name so I'll never see Rob again but he was sweet and said that what we were doing was very romantic. After a night of rocking we got to wander around times square. In the morning we saw a few more sights and ended our trip with the empire state building.
 
This was my second favorite moment.  The first being a small everyday thing that he does for me. We were walking along and I was talking to him looking at him instead of where I was going. He moved his hand and from my side down to my hip guided me around an obstacle I was about to walk into. All was done without saying anything or interrupting me. That one moment showed me how connected we are. How passion grew into love and love has had time to mellow into a perfect comfort. We know each other inside and out and I don't want to loose him anytime soon. 

Hopefully he figures out something for the forth because I'm done planning. It was a lot of fun. 

Wow it's been a month since I last wrote to all of you. I'm still at home wasting away. They won't let me back to work because my head and the migraines are killer. Sitting around all day is really starting to get to me. 

So apparently I am a part of the 20% of people that concussions last longer than 3 weeks. I'm almost through the 5th week of this and its really starting to have bad effects on me.